My life is undoubtedly a mess right now. There are things happening that I never wished for. There is stress, exhaustion, negative feelings, and much more. But at the end of the day, all of it goes away.
Call it luck. Call it karma. I think it was just the perfect thing at the perfect time. I’m excited for the first time in what seems like years. I feel like a princess. I’m not completely deflecting compliments. I know that he’s by my side no matter what gets thrown in my direction. He tells me I’m beautiful. That’s a word I hadn’t heard in years, at least not used when talking about me. I feel like I can let my guard down. I built this huge wall around my heart at a young age. But being with him has allowed me to break it down. I don’t need it. He’s not going to hurt me.
I just know. And now I can’t imagine what life would be like without him. I remember the day I figured it out. It was a Thursday. We were in the happiest place on earth, watching fireworks. All I wanted to do was stand next to him and hold his hand. I didn’t. I wish I had. But now I can do it whenever I want. And that’s what matters the most.
That’s enough rambling for the evening.